Category Archives: Little Lessons

A Morning Walk

I went for a lovely, leisurely walk this morning. It was only about two miles, but it set me up for the day, got the blood flowing and the oxygen pumping. I really enjoy these morning walks, because it is one of the few times during the day that I can be competely ‘in the moment’. I leave the worries of the world behind me when I walk through the gates and into a different world. Bills, school-runs and housework don’t exist in this place. Here there is only the Autumn forest massaging my senses and clearing my mind.

Natures palette doesn’t disappoint as I catch sight of the edge of the forest, drawing me in to its canvas of green, red and gold. I walk where the fallen leaves are thickest. Unseen trickles of water surround me, treetops explode with crows startled by sound unheard by human ears. The air is cool, touching my fingers with a hint of the colder weather to come. I come to a break in the trees, and the sun blesses me with a whisper of warmth. I pause for a moment, and breathe in the forest air. The crisp leaves and damp soil bring the memory of a taste, the taste of a memory, of hunting for blackberries with my Dad. This forest is a healer, its aromatherapy is both grounding and uplifting.

I leave the forest reluctantly, the real world waits outside the gates. I am different now, not the same. The world is different too, harsh and hard compared to the softness of my forest. I will be back though, this soil, these trees, are my antidote to reality. I will be back when I need to reconnect, to nature, to myself, to simplicity.

I will be back tomorrow.

The Energy of 2012

I was listening on-line when Heidi Sawyer spoke about the very changeable energy of 2012, (read about it here) but I mustn’t have taken it all in, as no sooner had I posted about being outside of my comfort zone than the fates had conspired against me & I found myself without premises & back working from home!

I was very surprised at my reaction, when I realised that the new premises were highly unsuitable for use. Rather than being disappointed, I packed everything into the car & headed back home (most of the boxes are still in my kitchen!)

I’m now running a psychic development class from my house & it’s working out great! I have 5 really nice psychic students & we’re having great fun 🙂 When Heidi mentioned the changeable nature of 2012 & how it would be best to ‘go-with-the-flow’, I guess I WAS listening after all!

Outside My Comfort Zone!

I am SO far out of my comfort zone right now it’s almost scary.

I say ‘almost’ because in fact, I am incredibly excited too. I have just taken on a new place in Abbeyleix where I can do readings, teach classes and the rooms can be hired by practitioners by the hour too (there is a shortage of this type of thing in Laois). So there’s no hiding behind ‘well I just read for friends’ or ‘I’ll wait until I have another course done’. This is it, serious business! Time to grow up (!) in the psychic reader sense. I’m coming out of my cocoon of being a practicing caterpillar and becoming a wonderful doing butterfly.

The support I am receiving from my friends and family is phenomenal (do-doo-be-do-be) hehe sorry can’t help myself when I hear that word :-). As I say, the support is wonderful BUT I’m really on my own when it comes down to it. No-one else can make me get out there & talk to people, sell myself & take advantage of opportunities as they arise. No-one else can make me go to bed at a reasonable hour and make sure I get a good breakfast (Well okay, Heidi Sawyer’s doing a pretty good job of that!). You know what I mean though? This is me, my project, my baby, my success or failure. Funny enought I’m not as scared of failure as I am of success. Sounds daft right? What if I’m successful and can’t handle it? If I’m successful people will expect more from me, more time, more quality. What if I don’t measure up – they might realise I’ve no business passing myself off as a successful business woman. WHO DO I THINK I AM?!

When my thoughts head down that direction, I realise that it is my EGO talking. To be truly successful I have to get my ego to stay quiet and trust that my soul knows exactly what it is doing. I imagine my soul doing a ‘Cesar’ on my ego – have you ever seen the Dog Whisperer? TSCH! Down Ego!

TRUST – that is my lesson here. I must trust that there is divine order and timing to everything – why would I be stressed when this is exactly where I should be and what I should be doing?

Recent events in my life have changed my perception of certain things, and I keep hearing the title of that book in my head (no girls – not THAT book!) The Susan Jeffers ” Feel The Fear & Do It Anyway” Right so – here goes!!!

Mind Body Spirit Festival

 

I had the honour to work with some wonderful people at the Mind Body Spirit this past weekend. As it was my first such festival, it was great to be part of a group which had so much to offer. Here are some of the photos from the weekend – Namaste!

 

The Seat of the Emotions

Don’t you just love Spring? The new-ness of it all, the potential of it all. Today feels like a real Spring day – not the blue sky / birds singing kind of day, more of a misty morning / crows fighting over breadcrumbs kind of day. But it has POTENTIAL.

It got me thinking (yes it does happen sometimes LOL)  about newness, and how I view it. Whether buds on the trees or that lovely new book smell, its all positive, right? But then – dum-dum-DUM – I thought about new cars. Oh yes all lovely and shiny, new car smell, zero on the clock, straight off the showroom floor. Sounds nice? NOOOOOO!!! Too stressful! I could not handle a brand new car! The sheer stress of it – I’d be afraid to drive it in case it got scratched, afraid to leave it in a car park in case someone let go of their trolley, afraid to take the plastic off the seats in case, in case, in case. I’d probably drive around with the plastic on the seats for 10 years!

Then I had one of those moments, not really a lightbulb moment, more of a dimmer switch kind of thing. A slow realisation that, do you know what, THAT is how I treat my emotions. I KEEP THE PLASTIC ON.

I am terrified of getting my emotions ‘dirty’, afraid of spilling fear or grief or anger or frustration on the upholstery. But now that I have had that dimmer switch moment, that is half the battle. I think one of the problems of how I have dealt with emotions over the years is that now I am afraid if I start to release these pent-up emotions I will open the floodgates and will not be able to close them again. To use my ‘plastic on the car seats’ analogy, imagine taking the plastic off your seats after 10 years and having to deal with all of the possible spills and stains that could have happened over that time, all in one go. That is a whole lotta dirt! I guess I’ll have to learn to release a little at a time. I believe this is part of my journey, to accept and acknowledge my emotions good and bad, to own them, feel them, and then release them.

Am I still afraid? You better believe it! But I am also determined, because I know if I don’t deal with this now, this year, it will continue to build up and I may never be able to feel true emotion again. So if we happen to meet up soon, and I squeeze out a few tears, or have a little hissy fit please don’t take it personally, I’ve probably just torn another piece of plastic off the seat of my emotions.

Thank you