I am SO far out of my comfort zone right now it’s almost scary.
I say ‘almost’ because in fact, I am incredibly excited too. I have just taken on a new place in Abbeyleix where I can do readings, teach classes and the rooms can be hired by practitioners by the hour too (there is a shortage of this type of thing in Laois). So there’s no hiding behind ‘well I just read for friends’ or ‘I’ll wait until I have another course done’. This is it, serious business! Time to grow up (!) in the psychic reader sense. I’m coming out of my cocoon of being a practicing caterpillar and becoming a wonderful doing butterfly.
The support I am receiving from my friends and family is phenomenal (do-doo-be-do-be) hehe sorry can’t help myself when I hear that word :-). As I say, the support is wonderful BUT I’m really on my own when it comes down to it. No-one else can make me get out there & talk to people, sell myself & take advantage of opportunities as they arise. No-one else can make me go to bed at a reasonable hour and make sure I get a good breakfast (Well okay, Heidi Sawyer’s doing a pretty good job of that!). You know what I mean though? This is me, my project, my baby, my success or failure. Funny enought I’m not as scared of failure as I am of success. Sounds daft right? What if I’m successful and can’t handle it? If I’m successful people will expect more from me, more time, more quality. What if I don’t measure up – they might realise I’ve no business passing myself off as a successful business woman. WHO DO I THINK I AM?!
When my thoughts head down that direction, I realise that it is my EGO talking. To be truly successful I have to get my ego to stay quiet and trust that my soul knows exactly what it is doing. I imagine my soul doing a ‘Cesar’ on my ego – have you ever seen the Dog Whisperer? TSCH! Down Ego!
TRUST – that is my lesson here. I must trust that there is divine order and timing to everything – why would I be stressed when this is exactly where I should be and what I should be doing?
Recent events in my life have changed my perception of certain things, and I keep hearing the title of that book in my head (no girls – not THAT book!) The Susan Jeffers ” Feel The Fear & Do It Anyway” Right so – here goes!!!